i
wish it was easier
to
believe that you wipe
all
my foolishness off the slate,
that
you don’t hold a grudge
but
pour out grace on me.
yet,
when i hold it all in,
when
i am not willing
to
sit down at the table
and
share my dumb mistakes,
well,
i
feel so empty, so lost,
my
soul is so parched
as
if i have been in a desert.
but
when i sit across from you,
rubbing
my fingers in circles
on
the tabletop, hoping the server
will
come by with more tea;
when
i clear my throat, start
to
say something, stop,
start
over again and, in a rush,
let
the words slide over to your side,
you
smile, grin, begin to chuckle,
break
out into a hearty laugh and,
picking
up the check, say,
‘let’s
get out of here and
get
on with living.’
we
go out into the bright sunshine
where
i start grabbing everyone
to
let them know that, in you,
they
find that haven of hope,
they
find that island in an ocean of fears,
they
find that shady tree on hot days,
they
find the one they’ve been longing
to
open their hearts so they might be mended.
if
we listen carefully, if we write it down,
if
we watch carefully, we will discover
that
the mystery is really simple to solve –
quit
insisting on our own way,
stop
trying to pull you to follow us,
let
go of all that anger than weighs us down,
and
if we do, why
all
that grumpiness, all those worries,
all
those ‘what will happen if God . . .’
are
washed away by those loving waters
of
grace, hope, joy, and wonder
and
we can holler our hearts out,
we
can skip behind you, holding hands
with
all the other mended souls,
glad
that we finally opened our mouths
and
heard your loving voice in our ears.
©
2020 Thom M. Shuman